I would describe myself as a late bloomer. I always thought of myself as not quite as clever as others so would stay quiet, not apply for that promotion, not risk standing out for the wrong reasons and being rejected, worried about getting things wrong so would procrastinate. I doubted my abilities in so many ways, but a strength was my relationships and integrity. I’ve always been able to connect in with people.
My belief that I wasn’t clever enough prevented me from trying. Trying and failing was so much worse than not trying. I couldn’t fail if I didn’t try in the first place. However, connecting with people was part of my unique source code even though I denied it and thought everyone had a natural empathy and compassion for others. I compensated my dire self-beliefs when I left school with a pre-existing strong work ethic when it involved others. It was no longer about me. I worked hard and that, matched with my people pleasing skills, lead to offers of promotion or other opportunities. I eventually decided to go to university and prove to myself that I could achieve academically, and no one was more surprised than me when I graduated with an Honours degree in Psychology.
It didn’t stop me from decades of still feeling like a fraud inside whilst appearing to others to be getting on with life and functioning pretty well, working my way up the corporate ladder to senior roles, all the while second guessing myself and waiting to be found out.
I got tired of the same old patterns coming up. As a mum of two daughters, I wanted to be the best role model I could be for them. I wanted my power back (if I ever had it). I researched various modalities and theories, experimenting and getting some gains. While still working full-time I went on to study and qualify as a Prekure Health Coach, Hypnotherapist, Havening Practitioner and Magnetic Mind Coach.
I now get to use all of this in my work and I’m having the most meaningful and satisfying time of my life doing what I do, the way I do it. I’m so grateful for the journey, the learnings from my past, my clients who I learn from as much as I facilitate and support their changes and breakthroughs, and my cheerleaders in my family and close friends’ circle. Thank you.